I have been on a Saul kind of thing. One of the things that has plagued me is am I Saul. Am I more like Saul than David. Second question can that change? To answer that question, I have to ask the question, could Saul of changed his destiny, or had his path been set. For sometime I have thought of a man is destine be a Saul or destine to be a David or something in between. In both situations, God called them when they were not seeking such a call, nor did they feel they were being called, until God sent Samuel, his prophet. I fear I’m more like Saul than David. What bothers me more, is my path set, or can my stars be changed. I can hear everyone scream as they read this, “YES, YES!” “You can absolutely change your stars.”
Ok, lets look at Saul, on more time. When he left his father’s house to look for some lost donkeys, he had no clue about what was getting ready to happen to him. unlike say a singer or politician or professional athlete who pursue their passion, and through their success they are put into the spotlight. And this isn’t someone’s 15 minutes of fame, who are thrust in to the spotlight for of one significant act. God altered this young man’s life in a drastic way. Saul’s life was elevated in every way, social class, wealth, responsibility, authority and importance in history. Because of God’s decision to make him king, his flaws, insecurities, and personality issues would be magnified on one of the biggest stages of life. Did Saul have anyway of understanding the ramifications for his decision and his actions. I think the answer is an emphatic, “No!” For a young man to handle this kind of change, authority, responsibility, and social elevation, he would have to be especially gifted. I keep thinking of Derek Jeter. He had an incredible career, on one of the biggest stages in all of sports. He was the shortstop for the Yankees, one of the most iconic teams in all of sports, in the largest media centers in the world. Were victories, defeats, failures and sins are blasted across every media source for all to see. Jeter seemed to rise to every big moment. He was their Captain and he truly handled himself exceptionally. But that’s not a fair comparison, because Jeter sought a professional baseball career and chose to sign wth the Yankees. I’m sure Jeter dreamed of the day he’d play professional baseball and spent his life preparing for it. Saul, on the other hand, is the definition of being hit by a Mac truck. Saul obviously was not ready or aware of what was ahead. Why, why God did you thrust him into this position for Your chosen people?
David, was thrust into the same situation, with one very important difference. He had a deep relationship with God. and his faith had been tested several times already in his young life. David had demonstrated great faith and he did not hide when presented with what most would consider overwhelming circumstances. He fought the lion and the bear, so he was ready for Goliath, and thus ready to lead God’s people. Its not a stretch to see why God chose David. But Saul? yes, a lot of questions.
Saul’s life and legacy are what Greek tragedies written. Not only would he die on the battlefield, his son dies beside him. And its not in glory. He dies in defeat, in a battle that is his own doing, the cause of poor decisions he made. Think about being in Saul’s situation. Men, your in the fight of your life, your son is beside you, the enemy is overwhelming, and you begin to realize, not only are you about to die, but you’ve lead your son to his own death. You will watch your son die at the hand of your enemy. Does it get any more tragic than this. And God started him on this path. Why?
Personally, I don’t think there is a definitive answer to this question, or at least one I can comprehend. But maybe, did God need a predecessor before David, so he could demonstrate the need to have a man after His own heart. Who is to say you are not one of those poor bastards that are picked to be that predecessor. Or are we some degree of this kind of preordained life? Or are you chosen to be David, who experience success through out your life, or some degree of this or that life?
The more important question is could Saul have changed his life? I believe the answer is yes, but its very unlikely. Is this why the path is narrow, that there is a stairway to heaven and a highway to hell? The question is not for the unbeliever, but the believer. It is not for the casual church goer, but for the godly man still struggling and maybe no one knows, or maybe others can see it, but you don’t know what to do about it. Or how to change your stars. Your not wired to overcome, but your heading to that battlefield and you don’t know how to avoid it? Men can and do have an epiphany and find that determination to change their stars and experience the victory. But that is the exception, and it is a supernatural kind of transformation or deliverance. For many the challenge is to great and it needs to be a deliverance that comes when a man has has the least to give.
So yes, a man can change his stars, either by intestinal fortitude or by divine intervention, or may be somewhere in between these two. More on that later. Saul would of needed divine intervention. Saul never falls on his knees and calls out to his God. I think of Job, who after holding onto his own self righteousness, confessed his weakness before God, repented in sackcloth and ashes and gave up. It was at this point that God delivered him. More on that later also.